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so i found out the other day that Z checks this periodically so i thought i might as well write on here again. He will appreciate it. So things have been kinda shitty lately but they are getting better. I have been spending a lot of hang out time with Z :) and things are good but there is nothing new to report and im not planning on having anything happen for awhile if you know what i mean ;). Things at home are ok i guess. They are getting better and i think my parents are finally starting to realize that im a good kid and they can trust me. Cuz i really dont do anything that bad. If only they really understood :(. Well school is out in like ten minutes and then i have to tutor for another hour. Of course after that i am going to Z's house to talk and hang out and prob watch a movie. My life is good and im very content....just plain and simple

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OMG! I went to hang out with Z and his friends and it was AMAZING!!!! His roomate D is really cool and of course i got to see me twin H! It was very chill and we finally got some alone time....mmmm but ive been feeling really odd lately...its like the WORST feeling and the BEST feeling all in one. I canat even explain it. All i know is that i am VERY happy and a little scared ummm Plain and Simple?

Rethinking

Ok so i realize that all ive been talking about is Z and thats because thats all ive been thinking about. I am sure he is loving it but i need to get some other things off my chest as well right? well not really ...everything else in my life is going ok. Home life is shitty and possibly even shittier than normal. But w/e i can handle that stuff. School is hard but im doing alright and im starting to buckle down more and get things done :) So i guess i just dont have a whole lot to report. Plain and Simple.

Hmmmm?

So life pretty much sucks right now. Im tired and i cant fall asleep and im on the verge of depression. Dont worry it wont last long im sure. Its wierd tho because im not unhappy...its just that... I know a way that makes me more happy than you can even imagine and i cant have it, at least not often. Dont freak out its nothing bad. Its just a person. If you have been keeping up on my posts then im sure you all know who im talking about. So anyways...its depressing me to know that its out there and...yet its not for me...Im just a little bit of a downer sometimes lol. I dont mean to be. Its just the way im feeling and if i dont get it out of my system soon i do believe i will explode. Messy! So anyways i am so unbelievably happy that it is depressing me..Plain and Simple????

Z and I

We argue, we talk, we're both all in...We laugh, we love, we dont always grin...Forever for always, against the world, me and him...Plain and Simple

YAY!!!!! I love how things have changed!

So Z quit the frat and his job..he was too stressed out. But hes picking me up on friday and we are spending the whole day/night together!!!! I m so excited. Well i have to go do some homework now! Ill be sure to get on here and let you know how this weekend goes! He is my amazing boy! Plain ans Simple.

Missing Him

So i talked to Z today for about 2 minutes. Literally. Hes good but he had to work. I wont get to talk to him again until most likely next week. Its killing me to not be able to see him on a regular basis. I love him. I am def hoping that he will com home next weekend...friday because i have a half a school day so him and i could hang out all day before i go to my dads. That would be amazing! So pray for me (wish) that it will happen....i dont know how much longer i can go without seeing him. I love you Z! oh and H and i are ok now. Its a little hard but we both understand each other and how we feel. We r trying to take care of each other because we are totally twins. Plain and Simple.