Logic vs. Emotions

Is it better to make a decision based on logic and what you KNOW is right and what will be best in the long run.....or is it better to make a decision based on emotions and what you FEEL is right and what would be good now?....comment me and let me know. plain and simple.

Depending on you

ok so i dont ask for much....well i dont think its much. I ask of you these things: dont lie to me. dont decieve. dont get too jealous. treat my friends well (there are exceptions). dont yell at me. dont force me into anything. keep my secrets. and last but not least keep your promises. Ok so thats kinda a lot i guess but is it really that hard to do? A promise to me is differant than a promise to most people. A promise to most people is when you say the words "i promise". well to me if you say " i will " or "i wont" or anyhting close to that that is a promise. If you cant do something then dont tell me that you are going to! I hate that! i might be over reacting but i dont care. this is how i feel. I have to be able to trust you and to depend on you ( to an extent). If you say you will be there...then you had better be there. If you say you will call...then you better freaking call. If you tell me it wont happen again....then it better not. I prolly sound like a bitch but i really dont care. And the worst part is that you know i feel this way and yet you still can not do those few things that i ask of you. And that hurts me....it really does. You just dont get it...if you are honest with me i wont get mad. Just tell me and i will be ok. Give me the chance to act reasonably. If i ask you to do something and you dont want to or you cant ...then thats ok but dont tell me that you will....just tell me no and i will deal with that a hell of a lot better than you makeing a promise you cant keep. And if your thinking this is about you not calling.....then you dont know me .....then you dont know me at all. Im not mad.... but this is how i feel...and i know ...talk about drama queen... but i feel better now that i got that off my chest.....i love you. plain and simple

Worry and Sorry2

hey everyone. so guess what...im happy. well for the most part. Im haveing a few issues and i guess those are causeing some people...well one person to worry. I love it that that perosn cares about me but i hate that i worry him . Im fine ...well i think im fine i guess i dont really know . but i hope that nothing like that will happen again (i know most of you dont know what im talking about but o wells) and z if you are reading this then i promise i will try to take better care of myself ok i will try...but i take back the promise that i will....but i will try. i appologize for everything and for makeing things a little difficult. And j (not jess) if you are reading this i am sorry that i put you in the middle of things.. i dont mean to its just you are my friend and i needed to talk to someone...and becasue of the situation it prolly wasnt the best idea to talk to you in particular. but i am sorry....ok i am... i have a few changes that i need to make. And to the rest of my friends ...i am sorry that i have been really distant. I know i havent spent a lot of time with any of you and im sorry i wll try harder now. plain and simple

IDK

So yeah earlier i was pretty pissed off but i cried it all out of me...now i dont feel mad...or sad...or anything. Im emotionally numb. well for the moment. shit happens and you have to deal with it. be mad and then let it go. and hey if your the one that somebody is mad at.....then just a pointer for the future.......let them be mad at you. dont keep appologizing....appologize once and let it go. they just need time. I just need time. o and by the way whoever said that family is the most important thing ....they need to go die....friends are way better. plaina nd simple ( with some random thoughts thrown in)

Unsure but Working on it

ok so things are good. Z and I are finally together. Well officially. I just got a vision of people paying up for their bets. Lol. But yeah i hope this is a good thing. I feel a little unsure of it and its a little scarey because it didnt exactly go too well the last time. Im sure a lot of you know what i mean by that. But im not going to do that again so no worries there. Im just a little scared that it is going to feel wierd ya know. I dont know why but w/e. All is good im just a little freaked out about what we are going to do once he...well....nvm im not going to think about that. It doesnt matter...lol...But i think im pretty happy for the most part. I guess we will just wait and see. Im sick of school already and i cant wait until christmas break. I hate christmas break but ill do anything for a break from school. O that reminds me. I have to talk to Z about some stuff that has to do with that. Ummm well now that that part of my life is kinda settled im going to start working on stuff with my friends. I need to build up some of the relationships that ive lost. I think ive kinda been ditching my friends. So im sorry for that guys! I promise ill work on it. I will get better at balancing things i promise. Plain and simple

I told you so

I love my friends to death...and i love thier advice...but its hard when they all give me differant advice and they all expect me to listen to them. I cant please everyone. And i hate knowing that someone is going to be able to say "i told you so" But i do have a problem. I dont know what to do. Ive thought about it and thought about it and i have no clue. I mean basically everyone thinks the same thing...well except like two people. I dont know what i think. I think that im scared to death that everyone is right. Is he really like that? Do i just not notice it? I mean yeah sometimes i can see that he has that potential...but is it that serious? Do i really let him push me around and influence me too much? Is everyone just worrying too much? I dont know what to do. I cant make a choice here. I mean no choice is right. Do i say yes just becasue i have no concrete reason to say no. Or do i say no to avoid a bad situation that may or may not ever happen? Babe if your reading this...im sorry....im sorry i make you wait and make you feel bad...you have no idea how bad i feel now...this makes me physically sick to my stomach...i dont know what to do....and thats not fair to you...Ive never been fair to you...i just need to talk to you....plain and simple

Rethinking

I always used to say things like “don’t plan”…..”timeing means nothing”…..”why wait”….”live in the moment”. But now im thinking that you cant live by those things. Planning is good sometimes…it sets goals, and timeing is everything…really it is, and waiting is good because sometimes your just not ready, living in the moment is ok but think about how it is going to effect things.

Forgive

Im not mad anymore. Well not really. And I mean I have no right to be mad in the first place anyways. But I guess that doesn’t really matter because either way I was mad…rather I had the right or not. Well I wouldn’t say I was mad or angry I would say that I was more upset. I was hurt. But im not upset now and I wasn’t upset for very long anyways. I just haven’t forgiven you yet. And I shouldn’t have to forgive you because you did nothing wrong that needs forgivness. Confusing I know but I think you know what I mean. I just think it would be bad to start off in a bad place. I mean to start off with me holding a grudge I guess you could say would be a really bad thing. I just think that we need to start fresh and right now im still stuck with old…negative…feelings and that’s not cool. Im sorry. I finally know what I want and im not ok with actually having it.

My thougths on today...

So this is not about my problems because i have a lot of them right now so i decided to discuss things that have nothing to do with me today...lmao. ok so everything sucks. well kinda ..i mean this is totally poor me but idc this is how i feel. I love my friends more than anything but man do i hate it when they stick me in the middle of everything. V and J...i love you but i love D too. I have my own opinions on who is right and wrong but i dont feel right telling you because i feel like im stabbing one fo you in the back. Im glad you guys are working things out but make sure that you two are not just reuniting because of your mutual hate for another person. In my eyes he did nothing wrong. I think that you two are being unfair to him. I really do. Give him a chance. Let him tell his side and talk to you about it. But its not really my business. And D , dont let people put you down. I know what they all say but dont care what people think...be true to who you are and dont change your beliefs just to impress someone. O and to a certain someone thank you for helping me with my problems today...i know you dont think you did help but you did. I enjoy hearing your opinions on things even if i dont always like them. plain and simple.

Pain

Ok so today ive thought a lot about pain. I thought about physical pain, emotional pain, mental pain. These are my thoughts. Physical pain is not that bad. I mean for the most part you can wait it out and it goes away. You can take meds for it, you can numb it and sometimes you can even ignore it and forget its there. Mental pain is the kind that only hurts you when you think about it. Most people can teach themselves to just forget. They block it out. They choose not to think about it. So once you master that you are pretty much set, its no big deal. But then there is emotional pain. There is no cure, there is no way to numb it or make it go away, you cant really wait it out, and it is the one of the three pains that actually causes you to have all of them at once. Im sure you know what im talking about. You get upset or angry or really sad and it makes you want to puke your guts out. Yeah im sure we have all experianced that. And you know what even though it is so horrible...i dont want it to go away. What i would have to go through to cure it is worse than the pain itself. Im not willing to let go of the feelings that cause that pain. I actually like those feelings. They are a comfort to me, they reasure me, and they remind me that im lucky to have those feelings for someone ( and to have a person feel the same way about me)...but once and awhile ill have a day that i think .....whats the point? these feeling are useless? i cant act on them because i will get attached. and that cant happen because we are friends...so mabey we are not normal friends....but we are just friends....and i gave up my right to anyhting more. So im not willing to move past them...i just have to deal with them. plain and simple ( this is not meant to depress you ...it is supposed to be haappy ok it just kind of turned gloomy at the end...so sorry)

The girl

i hate it when the girl who messes with the guys head. I mean come on already if you like him fine tell him, if you dont fine tell him, but none of this bullshit stuff.I hate the girl that is so unfair to the guy that its not even funny its just mean. i hate it when the girl is just scared to say how she feels because shes scared of how he will react. I hate the girl that is lost when shes not with him. I hate the girl that misses him five minutes after he leaves. I hate the girl that only thinks and talks about him. I hate it when the girl is so god damn afraid of ruining their friendship that she ruins any chance of it becoming more. But what i hate the most is when the girl...is me. plain and simple