Pain

Ok so today ive thought a lot about pain. I thought about physical pain, emotional pain, mental pain. These are my thoughts. Physical pain is not that bad. I mean for the most part you can wait it out and it goes away. You can take meds for it, you can numb it and sometimes you can even ignore it and forget its there. Mental pain is the kind that only hurts you when you think about it. Most people can teach themselves to just forget. They block it out. They choose not to think about it. So once you master that you are pretty much set, its no big deal. But then there is emotional pain. There is no cure, there is no way to numb it or make it go away, you cant really wait it out, and it is the one of the three pains that actually causes you to have all of them at once. Im sure you know what im talking about. You get upset or angry or really sad and it makes you want to puke your guts out. Yeah im sure we have all experianced that. And you know what even though it is so horrible...i dont want it to go away. What i would have to go through to cure it is worse than the pain itself. Im not willing to let go of the feelings that cause that pain. I actually like those feelings. They are a comfort to me, they reasure me, and they remind me that im lucky to have those feelings for someone ( and to have a person feel the same way about me)...but once and awhile ill have a day that i think .....whats the point? these feeling are useless? i cant act on them because i will get attached. and that cant happen because we are friends...so mabey we are not normal friends....but we are just friends....and i gave up my right to anyhting more. So im not willing to move past them...i just have to deal with them. plain and simple ( this is not meant to depress you ...it is supposed to be haappy ok it just kind of turned gloomy at the end...so sorry)