Sunday, October 19, 2008

Im scared

ok so im scared to death. Im scared of you and what your capable of. Im scared of the power you have over me. Im scared of how i feel about you. Im scared of how you feel about me. Im scared that i have given up chances i should have taken. Im scared that you will give me a second chance. And at the same time im scared that you wont. Im scared that if you give me another chance i wont take it...and im scared that i will. Im scared that my feelings for you are going away and becomeing feelings for someone else. im scared that the same thing is happening to you. Im scared that you will get over it and move on. And im scared that i wont. But more than anything in the world Im scared that in the future when you are talking about "us" the word regret will will come from your mouth. Plain and simple but really its not.
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Anonymous said...

Don't be scared! You're stronger than you know. I'm incapable of what I'm capable of. I'm a cripple compared to the power you say i have. Our feelings for each other will change, but that is not always bad. No regretting things you could've done ... remember that! You've moved past second chances (it'd be a third). I gave you hundreds of chances, but you didn't take any of them. I give you chances every day, but, even though I want you to take them, I still don't because it would make me the biggest hypocrite alive. I have made sure that I have tried everything in my power to be with you. I'm scared I will give you another chance, and I'm also afraid that I won't. Every day i hope that you move on so that I can finally move on too, but, in equal force, I hope that you don't because i never want to let you go. I have done nothing in my time of knowing you that I would ever regret ... and you should be able to say the same. My entire time knowing you, your code of life has been "no regrets," so don't change that now. You've got a good life, you've got good friends, and you've got a good heart <3 ... if you start regretting something, then that just might change and I don't know if I could live with that. Don't be scared, be brave. If you aren't brave where would that leave me ...

Love,
The P in friendship ;)

October 19, 2008 at 6:44 PM

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